Yes I am still alive

Hello to all of my blog readers (all 5 of you). I know I have not blogged in a while but who wants to document there life when it is no fun. Well the kids and I are still living with my parents and my divorce should be finial by the end of this month. I have more good days then bad now and I am looking forward to starting school in the fall to get my teaching degree. Eddie is not paying child support and is living with his now fiancee and her two kids. Mom is doing good except for today she had a biopsy on a spot on her leg that will not heal as they think it is either cancer or an ulcer. The kids are doing pretty good they still do not grasp all of what has happened or why but have come to just except that this how life is now. I have found that on the weekends that the kids go to their dad's I have to keep busy or I miss and worry about them. I have also been drawn closer to my faith thur all of this, God has a future planned for me and it is beautiful I just have to get thru today and tomorrow will come on its own.

I am still here

I just wanted to bring everybody up to speed on what is going on in my life. The hubby and I are separated and are filling for divorce. The kids and I are living at my mom's. I know that I have not posted in a long time and my last post was about this as well. The situation has not changed much but I am in a better place emotionally and mentally so life will go on. My mom is home and doing great we have seen so much improvement over the past month. Both of my parents have gotten strip throat this past week and now I am pretty sure the princess has it as well , to the Dr. we go on Mon. I am bummed because I have canceled my yearly trip to Denver due to lack of money and my car is falling apart. Thru all that life has thrown at me in the past year or so I have realised all the true friends and loving family I have. Thank you all for your prayers and love and support.

Wow life is ....

Ok I do not even know how to fill everyone in on what has been going on in my life. Ok the kids have both started back to school and I have started back to work too. That is the good news. The not so good news is my husband decided to leave me about 2 weeks ago. Then this past weekend I went down to Spring, Tx for a bday party but when I decided to come back home early..... I found my husband in the house he left me to raise his kids in with a woman and her daughter. All cozy watching a movie playing family I guess. Well needless to say we are filing for divorce and I am trying to move out of this house and figure out what I am going to do to provide for me and my kids. This has not been easy but I feel like God has a plan for me and this just a small part in it. Now as far as my mom, she has been in a hospital for about 10 weeks now but the good news is she is doing very well. Sometime this week she should move to a physical therapy center and then hopefully not too long down the road and she will go home. I think that covers most of my life for now.

Just another day

I had to go to some continuing education today for work. And let me tell you that was a waste of 5 hours of my life. I could have so been making cards or visiting mom or taking a nap something else, anything else. Then I get home and my husband is walking out as I am walking in to do what ever it is he thinks is going to help us have money but never really helps. (what ever makes him feel good about it all). And yes today I am a little bitter about things and need to vent. I have a lot going on right now and it is like my husband just is not even on the same planet and then I remember that he has a lot on his plate too. The whole situation just sucks, I just do not know how else to put it. We have no money, my husband still has no job, our rent house sucks, we are about to be kicked out of our rent house, my mom is in the hospital, my dad just had surgery, I have to get the boy ready for school, I have to get ready for the school year, and my kids have turned into heathens. Yeah I think that about covers it, I just really need to get my mind, heart, and sole in a better place so that I can deal better with all of this.

A day of surgery

Well tomorrow is a very busy day for our family. My dad has knee surgery at about 8 am and my mom has her first reconstructive surgery at about 9 am. My sister flew in today to help everyone for the next week. Mom is excited and worried about her surgery, she is excited because this is the first step to walking and some day go home. Dad has been waiting for this for about 5 months so he is just ready to get it over with. My sister and I are just trying to keep everybody healthy and happy at this point. Dad can be a big baby and mom never tells anyone how she really feels if it isn't nice. We will be busy for the next few days balancing the two parents.

update on mom

My mom is now in an acute care hospital in Carollton. We are pray that she does not have any more complications so that she can recover and come home soon. I still do not know what exactly the recovery will be but it will loosely look like this - she will continue to have a wound vac until the doc says so, once the wound vac comes off then we can all talk reconstructive surgery, at some point in all of this she will under go therapy to help her walk and move more freely and they have not said at what point in the recovery she will move to her home. There is still alot of unknown but we are hopefully on the healing side of it all. Thank you all for your continuing prayers and kindness.

My mom

Ok we have had a tough few days but hopefully we will see things turning for the better. My mom's leg has turned out to be a very bad staph infection and this morning they drained the area. Which from what I can tell was surgery to get the nasty stuff out of her leg. They will most likely drain it again on Friday and then hopefully she will start healing. We are not sure how long she will be in the hospital or what recovery will look like yet. So please keep mom in your prayers and that I will keep my head when dealing with my dad.

Life is unexspected

Life has been busy to say the lest. A few weeks ago we woke up to a phone call from the police. They were calling to ask us to come and take my brother in law's 2 kids as the parents were being arrested. Of coarse we went got the kids and we had temporary custody of the kids (one 2 year old and one 1 year old) for a little over 2 weeks. The kids are now with the other side of the family for 8 weeks and then hopefully back home. While we had 2 extra kids in the house my dad went into the hospital for a pain in his head. (I still do not fully understand what it was all about) Today was my last day of teaching for the summer and my mom just went to the hospital with an array of problems in which I hope they have answers for tomorrow. The hubby still is unemployed and starts EMT training Sat. morning. I think that sums it up for now, I will keep you all posted.

My Fireman

He past!!!! My hubby is officially a fireman!!!! Now he just has to get a job and start EMT training (it is a requirement to be a full time fireman in Texas). Until he is finished with EMT training he can work what they consider part time (12 hours a shift instead of 24) and he can work for more than one department or keep up side jobs to make up income. We are on the home stretch.

Fun day at the splash park

State Test

Ok hubby took the state test yesterday. We will not know the results for a few days but he pasted the physical stuff.

A/C and kids update - The A/C seems to be fixed!!! The little man is feeling better and the cough so gone so hopfully that means no asthsma. My car is still not fixed but atleast 2 out of three is good.

Hubby has past the academy test!!!!

They say the state test is easier so ,we are excited. Tuesday is the state test and then he is officially a fireman!!!!!

Little one sick and car trouble

As if my life was not complicated enough. The little man has been coughing his head off and his chest sounds like a marble in a tin can. I took him to the Dr. and she said he either has really bad bronchitis or asthma, in few weeks if he still has night coughing or tightness in his chest then it is asthma. Then on top of that my car has been in the shop for the past week. When I (and father in law) went to pick it up they told us oh by the way while it was here the water pump went out on it. So they tell us just keep putting water in it every day and no highway driving untill we can afford to fix it. Can we all say - Trade in time. Oh and on top of all of that we have no A/C in the house. Our land lord has been so wonderful and let us pay rent as we can (even miss a month if we can not pay) but because of this she now does not know if she will have the money to replace the system which is what is needed. Ok now that have ranted for a while I feel little better. At least we have a roof over our head and food on the table and family that loves us. We are very blessed just sometimes it is hard to remember how blessed when you feel overwhelmed with the world around you.

Fireman Tests

Ok school is over and now all he has to do is take two tests - one for the academy and one for the state of Texas. He is going to take the school test the 6th of June and the state test the 9th of June. He had applied at two fire departments but we have not heard anything yet. The plan is once he passes both tests to apply at every fire department within a 30 min drive radius. So keep the hubby in your prayers as his is nervous about the testes and that he will have a job very soon.

The kids programs

The princess singing The Ittisy bittisy spider with her friends.

Now she is singing the wheels on the bus. (her fav.)

The little man dancing with a really cute girl. It was sooo cute he was always just second behind everybody and it made it soooo funny.

He was supposed to be a duck (I think) but the masks were very strange.

Both kids sang in programs at school last week. And they both were soooo cute that I just had to share some picts.

Some more picts

I am getting ready for the big arts and crafts fair the weekend but wanted to post so that you all knew I was still here. These are picts from our way home from Colorado. The mountians looked soo pretty that I had to take some picts this is only a few of the many I took on the way home. I will post ablut the arts fair and the kids next week.

My Sentiments Exactly

I have finally gotten my company blog up. My sentiments exactly is my company name and I am posting about 5 cards a day that can be ordered at anytime. I should be in the big arts fair here in Rockwall next weekend so come by and see me. I have added the blog to the list at the right please go and see it and tell me what you think of the cards.

I thought I would share a few picts from our trip to Colorado (I know that was a while back). The little man got to ride on Uncle L's Harley. I have to admit he did look pretty cool on it. The little man really loves his Uncle L, I'm sure it does not hurt the he has all the fun big boy toys. (Uncle L is pretty good to the kiddos). I will share more picts later in the week. I have not had much to write about so I thought that I could pull out my picts.

My husband the fireman

I know alot of you have been asking me about the fire academy so I thought I would fill you in. Hubby has about 5 more weeks of school and is loving it. We still do not know what fire department he will work for but we do know of several that are hiring. He has been doing side jobs to keep us going at home. Here are few pict of him at school in his gear.

In this one he the one close up on the left.

He is the one in the black pants with the yellow strip close to the building.

Never go to the zoo on spring break 1/2 price day

Wed. was our trip to the zoo. The Fort Worth zoo was packed as it was 1/2 wed. and spring break. We tried to meet with a friend but they could not even get in the zoo. We got there 15 min after opening and there were only parking spots in the grass and the line was 30 min. The weather was great but there was sooo many people that we could bearly move around with a stroller. We could not get to alot of the exhibits as they were packed and we could not see the animal. It is a sad day when you can not even get to see the lions, giraffes, and elephants at the zoo. The kids did not seem to mind too much they were just glad to be outside and some were besides the house. They did get to ride the train a few times and I felt so bad that they did not get to see much that I even braved the gift shop for a treat for both of them. On the way home we even stopped and got Sonic treats. The kids and I did have a good day together even if it did not go as planed. Today Nana and Papa are going to take them to the park so they should have another day filled with fun before we all go back to school.